My mind is like the sky right now - cloudy. There isn't much clarity in my thoughts. What's clear, though, is that Mum's garden is thriving. Did I do that? How?
It's funny, but I've never taken a real interest in gardening until Mum "passed me the baton" several months ago. Prior to that, if someone had predicted that pruning, weeding and all things associated with garden cultivation would loom on my horizon, you would've laughed. I would have, too. Though I wouldn't now. Olivia Newton-John once said in an interview, "You never know what the future holds." That's so true.
While I've been trying to learn, mostly through trial and error, the intricacies of gardening, somehow the flowers have been blooming in spite of my lack of knowledge and confidence. The bag of fertiliser Mum left behind, which I've been applying at regular intervals, may have something to do with it. There's still a good amount of it left, but the next time I go grocery shopping, I'm going to check out the gardening section. Hopefully they have what Mum bought, otherwise it's a trip to the nursery.
Our garden isn't landscaped in any way. It's a mishmash of colours and variety Mum's collected, nurtured and grown over the years. What you feel throughout the space really is her character. To me, that's such a gift and I intend to keep it that way.
Because there's more on my mind these days, I often feel like I need a peaceful retreat, and the garden provides that. Even when I'm not actually doing any gardening, just being out there in the midst of the flowers and greenery helps me relax. Moreover, they make our house feel like a home. Maybe that's why Mum loves the garden. Maybe now I'm starting to understand. It's definitely a shift for me, but over the course of the last few months, I've developed a particular fondness for the garden I'd never felt before, and it's a really nice feeling.
Yes, my mind may be as grey as the sky right now, but one thing is clear: Mum's a big part of my life. I may not have her touch, but I'm going to do my best to take this baton all the way to the finish line. 🌺🌼🌸